I grew up in an unstable family environment. My early days were marked by frequent moves because of my mother’s illness and my dad frequently changing jobs. The constant moving meant I didn’t make long-term friends; we didn’t feel like part of a community; and never had a place to call home. Later when my parents divorced and Mom got sick again, my brothers and I were placed in Foster Care. Even then we didn’t stay in one place for very long. That resulted in me becoming rather shy and having little self-confidence.
I joined the Air Force but never aspired to do great things. I just wanted an average life and family, like it seemed everyone had. After getting married and having a child, I left the military and went back home to begin my “normal” life. I found a job, but it wasn’t enough to meet our needs. I returned to the regular salary and benefits of the military. I settled for the stability of an enlisted military career.
When I retired from the Air Force, I once again looked for a “normal” life and thought I found it with a government job, we bought a home and were part of a great Church. This wasn’t enough for my wife, who wanted to travel. I wasn’t sure I could do it, but I joined the State Department when my other job looked like it would be contracted out. Later, I found myself facing an overwhelming new assignment, described as “impossible” by a seasoned veteran. I knew I couldn’t do it on my own. Now that I am nearing retirement, I find myself looking at a whole new set of challenges.
Thankfully I found out a long time ago that “I AM” is enough. Perhaps I need to explain that “I AM” is another name for GOD. Before I knew Him, He sent His son to die for my sins. Before I accepted that sacrifice, His mercy protected me. After I was saved, I was able to turn to Him for help and every time I was not enough “I AM” was.
He helped me get through a tumultuous childhood, where I accepted Him. He helped me find a career when I had no skills. He gave me a family when I was lonely. He helped me overcome daunting obstacles in my job when I was not enough. When I lacked confidence in myself, He let me put my confidence in Him. Yes, I am not enough, but I AM is.
Wayne Lance (2015) – That’s Good News to Share!